This past weekend I went to the IDFA Posing Clinic with Dr. Kevin Ashby and Dr. Wendy Carvalho-Ashby.

I had mentioned earlier that I was thinking about entering a Fitness Model competition.  Well…I’m going to do it.

This weekend was not easy though!  It brought forward a lot of self-judgments that I knew were lurking there, but I pretended they didn’t exist.  I am, after all, The Queen of JOY you know.

You know…things like this:

99% of everyone here is younger than me.

Everyone’s hair is done up! All I see is my skunk line. I really need a cut and a color.

Look at all their nice clothes. I’m wearing a baggy t-shirt to cover my pooch.  I don’t see a pooch on anyone else here.

We have to “strut” in front of everyone? I haven’t been in heals since the summer of 2009! This is NOT going to be graceful, and everyone is going to look at me.  I can only imagine what they’ll be thinking.

Then I heard the whispers.

Are you serious? In front of everyone? Now? No way. (From the lady sitting beside me who looked incredible.)

I was tired of everyone telling me my legs needed to be smaller.  I figured I’d try something where I would be accepted for my size.  (From a young lady who figure skated and had the most incredible legs!)

I looked around and noticed things too.

I wasn’t the only one who slipped doing the T-walk. 

I wasn’t the only one waiting until the last possible moment to go up and practice.

There was a young man who was quite slender and looked out of place next to the bigger men there.  He had the nerve to get up there and pose, and had fun doing it.

Everyone clapped like mad for everyone else.

My goal is the October 2011 competition here in Calgary.  I can do the training.  I can do the nutrition.  I just have to figure out how to do the walking out on stage with confidence and flair.  I’ve got some time.  And there’s another Clinic at the end of summer too.  I’ll make sure I register for that.

Yes.  I’m still scared.  I’m stepping waaaaaaaaay out of my comfort zone.  But I’m excited.  I’m really excited.  That’s how I KNOW this is something for me to do.  That Excitement.  The thing is, I used to get that feeling for healing workshops.  Weird I’m getting that same feeling for a Fitness Model Competition!

Hmmmm…different kind of event, but I’ll bet this will be a healing experience for me.  I’m always cared for.  Something new to heal and grow with.

How does your Spirit speak with you?  Do you get that excited feeling like I do? Will you follow the Guidance your Spirit is giving you?

Go for it!  It’ll be a rocking Journey!  You’re going to love what you experience, and what you will see on the other side!

Dream BIG!

Velma Gallant
The Queen of JOY!

PS ~ Got a GREAT interview on tap for you tomorrow.  Joan Borysenko is on Welcome Changes Radio tomorrow.  We’ll be discussing her book, “Fried: Why You Burn Out and How to Revive”.  You won’t want to miss it!